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This is a post about all the friends and family ive lost along the way to suicide. those who lost their battles with their mental health struggles and chose to end their lives. Something i deeply struggled with most of my life.

This is a thank you to all to have loved and support me along my journey!

I wrote this thinking about the experiences that have shaped my life and the role anger or fire has had on my life. In the fiction there are truths of my life sewn between. the lines are there as a parallels to my life in many ways.

Coming to accept a higher power into my life wasn't easy. I didn't want to give up control of my life to a force that I believed was never there for me in my life.

Living one day at a time, one moment at a time gives us the space to grow within ourselves. To be present in our own lives and recognize where we might have faltered along the day.

The amends process was a difficult journey for me. i was apprehensive at what was in store for me. I didn't want to face my past let alone make amends for my mistakes and failures. I wouldn't trade those moments for anything because they made me a better person and a better man.

Anger played a large role in my life for many years as did my resentments. Over the years i had many opportunities to grow from them but i chose to remain in darkness and my own pain. Until i reunited with my higher power.

Triggers can happen anywhere and anytime to us. This post is about finding ourselves in these moments and how we can move forward from them. Its not that simple for everyone and i understand that. This is what i have learned and am continuing to learn.

When we become aware of our defects and shortcomings, we gain the power to change. we can choose to move forward and heal. God gives us space to understand these things and when we are ready he shows us the way.

People come into our lives to teach us lessons, to love us and to support us. They all enter and leave our life for a reason and Gods plan for us becomes clear. We cant always choose to stays and goes but we can be grateful for what we take away from those that do leave and give love, gratitude and support to those that do stay,

We all have people in our past who hurt us, wronged us or slighted us. We have people who didnt live up to our expectations and it hurt us. We also have people who loved and supported us along our journeys, in our addictions that we never quite understood why. Because we are human and we hurt one another with past hurts, but we also try to love and find compassion for others. This is my story and i hope you can relate in some ways.